Losing Weight Is Hard

I'm a follower of Kevin Zahri's blog

He is a fitness coach

He wrote on good diet, exercise, etc.

Used to follow his advise on having a proper balanced diet

But I'm fail to do it consistently

I guess I'm not strong enough to say no to delicious foods

I used to have bloating tummy 

Squat, jumping jack, sit up, leg raise, bicycle crunch etc

I've done these before

But it turns out that I got huge ovarian cyst in my tummy

Thank God the cyst didn't explode in my tummy

Otherwise, my life will be in hell

Still under food restriction

For good recovery - they said so

So I guess I can control the amount of food intake

My aunt taught me on exercise

Like a after-delivery-mummy do

She said I can't exercise like before - before the surgery

Try to avoid any long-term effect to my body

I guess I should listen to her

Hoping to lose some weight
By taking good, well balanced meal everyday & suitable exercise routes

Becoming A Morning Person

Morning person

Getting used to it

A new me for this semester

Wake up early

Have proper breakfast - not too light, not too heavy

Heavy breakfast may cause you're sleepy

Lots of thing need to be catch up

Becoming a morning person do help me stay focus

My research progress quite well

Got many things to be organized before I'm start editing my chapter 2

Still need to study many stuffs

Overall, I'm happy with my performance this semester so far

And then I realize that I wasted so many times before for not stay focus

Hope I could finish my lab work by the end of this semester

Still got trouble to sleep early

But I think it's okay as long as I got enough rest

It's important to have good quality of sleep

So you don't feel easily exhausted on the next day

Try hard to submit my thesis and viva in 2016

Wish me luck

Good Night To You

Dear you

Someone beyond my reach

I hope and pray that our path will cross

Someday

Till that day
I'm here waiting
Wondering would you look at me (or not)
 Me and you may not in the same status
I'm sick of the status
Why people do judge by it
Wealth is not everything

Till that day
I want to be a better woman
A high class woman
Have education with good manner
Beauty with brain
A lethal combination
(Beauty doesn't always mean you got nice, fair, flawless skin)
Beauty is subjective

Till that day
I should focus on my study
Finish it first
Pray all is well

I don't want to be a burden to men in my life
My late dad
My brother
My uncles
You (if we got married)
Dragging these men to the hell because of me
Never want it as Me love them much

Berjuta cahaya datang pada ku

(Millions of light come to me)

Menari dengan ku

(Dance with me)

Menyanyikan lagu tentang nya

(Sing a song about him)

Duhai bintang

(Dear star)

Mungkinkah yang ku rasa

(This feeling, is it possible?)

Apakah sudah saat nya

(Is this the right time)

Untuk ku menyukai nya

( For me to like/love him)

Apa Kata Bintang by Gita Gutawa

Found this sweet, lovely song 5 years ago

When I watched the wedding video of Malaysia first Astronaut

Both of them are medical doctors

Thank You Love For Being My Flashlight

Currently in the dry lab

That's what we called for our writing lab

Wet lab is where we're doing our experiments

Suppose do the lab works for another trial

But since somebody used the shaker, I will do it next week

Just write up the thesis draft

P/s: Got distracted so I'm writing this up. LOL

Because of my health issue, prefer no marriage

But I still need someone to take care of me

(Even though I can take care of myself)

He

Let him go

Belongs to another girl now (his wife)

Just wish for his happiness

He was your past

Open your heart to another guy

Who knows you may have better guy than him

SOMEONE

Beyond my reach

If God says he's meant for me

Our path will cross

(Can I have him please)

Somehow reality is painful

It's bitter

But need to swallow it down

Addicted to these two songs these days

Terima Kasih Cinta by Tasha Manshahar

Flashlight by Jessie J

Salam Maal Hijrah

Maal Hijrah

Islamic New Year

Told us about lots of sacrifice made

Still struggling doing my research 

Something that I don't like

Need to re-do the experiment once more

Sigh

Halfway of pursuing the doctorate study

No way I would quit it now

Need to finish it up even though it would take some times

Talking about sacrifice

I do have in mind that I want to be a better person

But somehow I'm not that strong

Changing into a new, better person would be challenging

Plus, it's not that easy

I'll try my best

The Power Of Warehouse Sale

Supposed to be in the lab doing my lab work. But since somebody used the "my" water bath instrument - really pissed me off. So decide to go to a warehouse sale near my area with sister. 

Simply Siti 

Range of product of skincare, makeup & fragrance

Introduced by Malaysia's No 1 Female Singer, Siti Nurhaliza

My favourite singer

People do love sale. So do I. Bought lots of stuff.

Perfume & body mist

Perfume, BB cream, lipstick & lip balm

Not all belongs to me. 

Got order from my mum, sis & aunts 

Still need to go there tomorrow

Hope the stock is not out yet

Can I Eat These???

Food restriction

Sigh.

I wish I never fall sick before. 

Ovarian cyst affect my life in many ways. 

Craving for these food right now

Mixed Rice

Cheese + instant noodle + spicy rice cake

Spicy rice cake

Rolled vegetables rice

However, my mum told me not to. 

Need her green light first before having any meal that I love to eat before. 

It's for my own benefit - she said

This is my everyday meal now.

SAD

White rice + chicken soup + fried mackerel 

Not forgetting this smelly healing product - contain sea cucumber.

Say Hello To The Labwork

End of my sick leave.

Two months doing nothing at home. Not even a journal for reading or writing draft of review paper. I'm dead if Prof ask me of it. Haha.

Still need to go the hospital for the follow up - reviewing the result of lab test done on my cyst ( I guess). Quite nervous about it. May Allah ease my heart and make me less worry about it and my future life.

Continue doing the lab work that I left before. Actually, only few people knew about me undergoing the surgery last July - but I wrote it up here. They were quite surprised when they found it out. Got a free lecture from them regarding the food restriction. Same with my mum. Sigh. But I do know that they do so as they love me.

Got another lecture from Sis Ila on the next day. She said that I look different from before - I look sick and I don't walk fast like before. So, me told her. She didn't allow me do my lab work so much. Don't stand up for a long time. No need to rush to catch up the works and my Prof should understand me. Need to take care of my health first and doing things slowly - but still got progress. Don't stressing myself over the lab works.

Thank you my beloved lab mates.

Still want my lab works to be finished by the end of this year

Happy Eid Mubarak

Happy Eid Mubarak to all Muslim around the globe.

Hide the pain, keep smiling.

Everything happened for a reason

Whatever the reason is, we may know it sooner or later

God know what is the best for His subject

Never Forget This In Life

I got stomach pain end of last month. I thought it just a normal period pain. Since the pain was not relieved after me consumed the medicine and applied ointment, decided to go for a check-up. Never drive my car at such speed - really slow. Thank God that the clinic is quite close to my house. 

As usual, need to register first and wait for my turn. My number was called quite quick. Need to do the scan for confirmation. The doctor said there is something in my stomach and she wrote me a refer letter to the nearest hospital. They sent me to the hospital straight away by ambulance since I came alone by myself - first time ever.

Same procedure at the hospital. Registration and basic check up - body temperature and blood pressure. Done the x-ray, doctors said something in my lower body gave a shadow look in the x-ray film. Sent me to the O&G department. Second ultrasound scanning here. Yes, he said it's look like an ovarian cyst. First time ever in the labor room. Third ultrasound scanning here. He confirmed that is an ovarian cyst. Double confirm by another senior doctor. Quite big size - 12 x 15 cm. Even me myself shocked. The doctor said the cyst has been in my ovary for some times. Otherwise, it won't grow to that size. Just able to give him a smile. Admitted into hospital that night.

Got nothing much on the next day. Being checked by the gynecologist doctor and some practical doctors. The nurse need to monitor my body temperature avoiding me catch a fever, otherwise need an urgent surgery. The nurses are really nice. On the following day, the pain kept coming on and off just like the previous few days. The O&G doctor said that I need a surgery. Whenever the OT is free, I'm gonna go in. It's nerve-wrecking as the doctor explained the whole thing to me - the after effect of surgery. Can't focus much on what she said as me kept thinking about my future. Of course I damn worried about it - because I'm single. They gonna remove the cyst together with my ovary as the cyst has twisted the ovary. Doctor said I still got chances to get pregnant in future. At the same time, my thought of marriage is vanished. No more thought of it. Yes, feeling down on myself.

1st July 2015
5.00 pm - 8.30 pm
Not know what the hell happened as I was under anesthesia during the whole surgery process. The moment I opened my eyes, I was in the lift - to be warded. The second moment was seeing my mom's and sisters' faces. Wide awake after that but the effect of anesthesia was still on - felt sleepy.

On the 3rd, I was allowed to consume clear fluid - plain water ONLY. My mom worried as the colour of my urine is not good. She feed me lots of water. Throw it up during the night. My sister was panicking as I threw up the water - quite a lot. The nurse came and asked if I'm okay. She told her about the urine and water consumption. Nurse said the colour of urine is affected as I take antibiotic - in pills and liquid form. Felt relieved. Throwing up again in the next morning. At this time, I was with my mom.

Discharged from the hospital on 5th July.
Another bad thing that happened in July and fasting month.
Still need to take medicine and injection after that.

Now hoping for speedy recovery.