Can I Eat These???

Food restriction

Sigh.

I wish I never fall sick before. 

Ovarian cyst affect my life in many ways. 

Craving for these food right now

Mixed Rice

Cheese + instant noodle + spicy rice cake

Spicy rice cake

Rolled vegetables rice

However, my mum told me not to. 

Need her green light first before having any meal that I love to eat before. 

It's for my own benefit - she said

This is my everyday meal now.

SAD

White rice + chicken soup + fried mackerel 

Not forgetting this smelly healing product - contain sea cucumber.

Say Hello To The Labwork

End of my sick leave.

Two months doing nothing at home. Not even a journal for reading or writing draft of review paper. I'm dead if Prof ask me of it. Haha.

Still need to go the hospital for the follow up - reviewing the result of lab test done on my cyst ( I guess). Quite nervous about it. May Allah ease my heart and make me less worry about it and my future life.

Continue doing the lab work that I left before. Actually, only few people knew about me undergoing the surgery last July - but I wrote it up here. They were quite surprised when they found it out. Got a free lecture from them regarding the food restriction. Same with my mum. Sigh. But I do know that they do so as they love me.

Got another lecture from Sis Ila on the next day. She said that I look different from before - I look sick and I don't walk fast like before. So, me told her. She didn't allow me do my lab work so much. Don't stand up for a long time. No need to rush to catch up the works and my Prof should understand me. Need to take care of my health first and doing things slowly - but still got progress. Don't stressing myself over the lab works.

Thank you my beloved lab mates.

Still want my lab works to be finished by the end of this year

Happy Eid Mubarak

Happy Eid Mubarak to all Muslim around the globe.

Hide the pain, keep smiling.

Everything happened for a reason

Whatever the reason is, we may know it sooner or later

God know what is the best for His subject

Never Forget This In Life

I got stomach pain end of last month. I thought it just a normal period pain. Since the pain was not relieved after me consumed the medicine and applied ointment, decided to go for a check-up. Never drive my car at such speed - really slow. Thank God that the clinic is quite close to my house. 

As usual, need to register first and wait for my turn. My number was called quite quick. Need to do the scan for confirmation. The doctor said there is something in my stomach and she wrote me a refer letter to the nearest hospital. They sent me to the hospital straight away by ambulance since I came alone by myself - first time ever.

Same procedure at the hospital. Registration and basic check up - body temperature and blood pressure. Done the x-ray, doctors said something in my lower body gave a shadow look in the x-ray film. Sent me to the O&G department. Second ultrasound scanning here. Yes, he said it's look like an ovarian cyst. First time ever in the labor room. Third ultrasound scanning here. He confirmed that is an ovarian cyst. Double confirm by another senior doctor. Quite big size - 12 x 15 cm. Even me myself shocked. The doctor said the cyst has been in my ovary for some times. Otherwise, it won't grow to that size. Just able to give him a smile. Admitted into hospital that night.

Got nothing much on the next day. Being checked by the gynecologist doctor and some practical doctors. The nurse need to monitor my body temperature avoiding me catch a fever, otherwise need an urgent surgery. The nurses are really nice. On the following day, the pain kept coming on and off just like the previous few days. The O&G doctor said that I need a surgery. Whenever the OT is free, I'm gonna go in. It's nerve-wrecking as the doctor explained the whole thing to me - the after effect of surgery. Can't focus much on what she said as me kept thinking about my future. Of course I damn worried about it - because I'm single. They gonna remove the cyst together with my ovary as the cyst has twisted the ovary. Doctor said I still got chances to get pregnant in future. At the same time, my thought of marriage is vanished. No more thought of it. Yes, feeling down on myself.

1st July 2015
5.00 pm - 8.30 pm
Not know what the hell happened as I was under anesthesia during the whole surgery process. The moment I opened my eyes, I was in the lift - to be warded. The second moment was seeing my mom's and sisters' faces. Wide awake after that but the effect of anesthesia was still on - felt sleepy.

On the 3rd, I was allowed to consume clear fluid - plain water ONLY. My mom worried as the colour of my urine is not good. She feed me lots of water. Throw it up during the night. My sister was panicking as I threw up the water - quite a lot. The nurse came and asked if I'm okay. She told her about the urine and water consumption. Nurse said the colour of urine is affected as I take antibiotic - in pills and liquid form. Felt relieved. Throwing up again in the next morning. At this time, I was with my mom.

Discharged from the hospital on 5th July.
Another bad thing that happened in July and fasting month.
Still need to take medicine and injection after that.

Now hoping for speedy recovery.

Hectic Life As A Student

It has been a while. 

Sometimes I do miss story telling in here. 

But still need to do lots of thing. 

Recently, my supervisor is retired. Quite sad and frustrated because he still got postgraduate students to be supervised. Well, can't say much about that. Just wonder why the management do so. So I need to change my supervisor. Quite troublesome because I'm under scholarship. So need to write a formal letter informing them about this matter. Sigh. My co-supervisor will be my main supervisor now. Frankly speaking, I don't remember the last time I met her. Quite nervous about that.

One of my research member just got the new female supervisor as well. I do think she is new in the faculty. New SV, new working style. I love the way her new SV does things when she told me about her. Also nice and friendly. But sadly, my colleague need to change lab. Gonna do her labwork at another place. Gonna miss her a lot. 

My plan doesn't go the way I want it to be - life doesn't always goes your way right. Still struggling in my research. Need to be more focus and organised. 

Thesis writing on its way. 

Chapter 1 - Revise one more time

Chapter 2 - Need to be edited 

Chapter 3 - Need to revise the method again

Chapter 4 ???

After I get some good and satisfying data

Home Sweet Home

Sweet escape

Yes, a good way to relieve stress and pressure

Time for beloved ones - FAMILY

Leave my lab work for a while - still need to find out another method for analysis

Wonder when can I finish everything - perhaps on time

 Fly back to home

My diet plan is totally a big FAIL when I'm home

Normally no meal after 8pm

But still have a meal at 9.30pm at home

Just got these cute 2015 calendar

Asked my cousin to buy them from China since she is heading home

Desk calendar

To be located on my bench in lab

Pray for my smooth progress in research in 2015

Happy New Year 2015

Farewell 2014

Another year has passed
A tough year in conducting my study

2014 was full of memories

The happy, the sad ones

Heart-aches too

Let bygone be bygone

Move on please

Welcome 2015

Please be more nice to me

Want to finish up my study

Hope for no obstacles in study

Keep trying to be a better person

For the sake of me

Hope to see some of my goals of life are achieved

Hoping for meeting someone to share pain and joy of life - instead of family and close friends

Best Of Luck in 2015

Need Time For Myself Too

It has been a while since my last post on this

My private-story-yet-anyone-can-read-it

Where I shout out my feeling

Lots to say

Where should I start telling the story

Firstly,

Happy Eid Mubarak to all Muslims around the world

Had the progress monitoring presentation recently. Somehow I don't know what the panels want. They asked about the reagents that I used. I don't mind when they criticized my research but please respect my field of research. If I want to do it according to your way, I would choose you as my supervisor, not my current supervisor. Can't say much - they were my lecturers long time ago. Just need to keep all the feelings inside. 

Spend the weekdays in the lab

Spend the weekends to study - need to be updated

When can I have time for my own

Frankly speaking, I'm kind of demotivated a little bit since I lost my dad

My one of the biggest supporter

I get distracted from my commitment quite easily

And then I keep focus back on my study

As I knew if he's still alive, he would not like to see me like this

But the cycle continue

Distracted-focus-distracted-focus-distracted-focus

Since my hands got tied by the government - due to the scholarship, really need to focus on my study and try to finish it on time - I don't know if I can make it or not.

Just keep trying my best

Keep calm and focus on study

BBQ And Steamboat For Dinner

Currently watching Korean drama entitled Let's Eat. Each episode shows different Korean cuisine. You can watch it here. 

It made me craving for the same meals as in the drama. One of the cuisine is raw crab marinated in soy sauce. Unfortunately, the lifestyle of a student limits everything. The price of raw crab is about RM25 per kilo. The number of crab per kilo is totally depended on the weight of a crab - mostly only 3 crabs per kilo. So, can't eat much.  

The stupid me is always starving for the whole day just to have dinner at Seoul Garden - Korean style BBQ buffet restaurant. Well, for the student, the price is RM36.90 per person. That amount of money enable me to survive for 3 days. Went to the closest outlet at Setia City Mall. 

Kimchi Soup

Fruits - Watermelon, honeydew

Me eat them as the starter meal

The marinated lamb and chicken

Side dishes - Carrot, cucumber

Dipping sauce

Ready-made food - popiah

Dessert 

Me and my sister were also having the seafood - crabs, bamboo clams, prawns, squids, half shell mussels. Made few lettuce wraps for myself - put the meat, side dish, sauce in a lettuce leaf, wrap it and eat it. My phone was running out of battery due to the photography. 

It's quite worthy to have meal in this restaurant serve the food in buffet - mentioned earlier. So, you can eat as much as you want. 

Full Of Regret And Frustration

It has been a while. Just recovered from fever. Well, many people have a fever lately due to the climate.

Went to Sunway Pyramid today. I think it has been a month since the last day I hang out. with friend. Same thing again - having Korean food at Asian Avenue. And then, window shopping. It's on the mid of the month. Even though I just got my monthly allowance, it doesn't mean I can spend much. Accompany my friend to the Nichii outlet. She is so addicted to this store. She said the clothes are nice and beautiful. Well, that's a statement of fashion slave. As for me, rather be book slave - just love the smell of a bookstore. From what I can see, the store doesn't have much Muslimah-style of clothes. They sell kind of the tight one (body shape style) even though the size is XL. That's why I wonder why she loves such fashion since her mom is a ustazah (person who teach religion at school). Weird huh. I guess that the power of fashion. 

 Looking for the Cold Storage outlet since it is on the directory board. According to the board, it's next to Jusco. But can't find it. Doesn't matter because Jusco do have Korean products. From what I heard from a friend of mine, CJ product are halal. So really excited to buy them so that I could make my own bibimbap - mixed spicy rice. 

I bought this ones.

- BBQ marinate sauce

- Hot pepper paste

- Sesame oil

Unfortunately, when I want to keep them refrigerated, I was happened to look at the ingredients' part . Oh my god, the sauce and paste contain cooking rice WINE.  Hell, no. I can't eat these stuffs. It is not allowed in Islam. Really frustrated. Feel so damn stupid - why didn't I look at it first before buying. Now, it's just a waste of money. 

I guess God still love me since I realize it before use them on my cooking. Should just use the local made products after this. Sigh.